Time, where is it?

They say the heat will be with us for a few more days.  Next week is suppose to be in the 70's. I want to say, I can hardly wait for next week but I feel like I am rushing my days away.  I suppose that comes with getting older.  We seem to notice time more, the kind of time that slips away.  I want so much to enjoy the rest of my life, I know that sounds  boring but I really do mean it.  I seem to be going through many days of feeling sad and lonely.  Don't get me wrong I'm generally not that way and I wouldn't describe myself as someone depressed.  I guess I am lucky enough that it doesn't last but an hour or two and I snap out of it.  I don't want to be that way.  I suppose the one thing I wish I could do is have friends.  I use to think I had a lot of them but my kids grew, I quit my job and I did not take care of my friendships like I should have.  That is really hard to admit as I have always had friends around me.  You know, someone to call or stop by and visit with. It didn't happen overnight.  I guess you could say it happened when I wasn't looking.  I wasn't paying attention and when I turned my head no one was there.  I had no phone numbers to call, no addresses to find and no name to think of.  Yes, I know there is Facebook.  I'm sorry, I don't like it.  I was on it for a short time just to see what it was like and it just happened my cousin from Kansas found me and we have been writing since.  That was a couple years ago.  So, for that I am glad but I have no desire to get on again.  We just exchange emails now.  I have discovered more people have regretted something they said on their facebook page or maybe they should have regretted it.  It's just too easy to be typing away on a machine and feeling safe and your thoughts get away from you.  Anyway it's not for me.  I would like to have someone who I could go meet for lunch.  Hey, maybe a cup of coffee.  The problem with that is your spending way too much for a cup and all of a sudden you feel this pressure to be someone you are not. 
     I also would like to go to San Francisco for the weekend.  Doesn't that sound like fun.  I really have been all over the City, thanks to my husband.  We have been to all the tourist spots and I do love them but I love it when he just goes to a part of the city, we park the car and start walking.  The little shops are so much fun and you will find a little cafe (I do mean little) that you didn't even realize was there.  The food ends up being so good and it's just fun to sit and watch the people especially if you get by the window.  That is fun and I do so hope soon I can do that. 
     I'm crocheting a baby blanket but in looking over patterns on Google I have discovered shadow knitting.  There are other names for it and it looks like it would be interesting.  Actually there are different kinds as the one pattern it shows a pair of hands praying.  It's not real plain but you see like the shadow.   Another kind is when you look straight on it's strips but when you look at the side you see a heart, or a hand etc.  First I am going to do the prayer hands in the shawl.  It really does look beautiful and when I get it done I will take a picture of it and put it here on my site.  Now you notice I said knitting.  I did knit years ago and will try it again.  Crochet is so forgiving as you can make a mistake and it really doesn't show, that is to other people but if you make a mistake in knitting it shows up like a sore thumb.  Wish me luck !   Tootles